I’m going to be honest. I’ve not felt very motivated to blog recently. It’s taken me a while but I think I’ve pinpointed it be a reflection of feeling a little lost in life recently. For over a year I had a firm goal. To move all my work online and start living a ‘digital nomad’ life. For a while after we came back to the UK it was exciting to see our friends and family again and take time to settle in. Francis is doing amazingly well, getting right back into his work again, making some serious goals and feeling excited to work towards them. I, on the other hand, didn’t have an alternative long term plan – I only made a plan A. So now I’m back at square one, asking myself what I actually want in life and being the horribly indecisive person I am, I keep changing my mind. In an attempt to move forward quickly, I’ve taken on more and more projects and jobs which of course start to pile up and overwhelm me.
A typical millennial, I crave something in life where I can actually make a difference to the world, even if that’s on a small scale. But that mountain seems so big and scary, I’m standing at the bottom of it completely frozen. I know I’m not alone, it seems to be quite common to be in your mid twenties and still have no f*cking clue of what you want in life. So if this is you too, just know that you’re not alone. Lots of people like to pretend they have it all figured out but hey, I’m betting a lot of them don’t. When I’m feeling stuck I always come back to this one question:
Alan Watts is a huge inspiration for me (if you aren’t familiar with him, go on youtube right now and type in his name). The thing is that money should not control our life decisions but unfortunately it does.
I want to travel forever – travel costs money.
I want to work for myself – I need a website / logo / manufacturing money.
I want to help people / animals / whatever – amazing! But how are you going to live / eat etc?
So there needs to be a compromise right? Start with the ultimate wish. Then figure out how you can get paid for it. We’re actually quite blessed to have so many options these days. In my Nan’s time she had a career choice as either a nurse or a receptionist. She actually wanted to be an artist. Now, you can be a artist if you want. You can use the power of the internet to sell your work, get grants for projects, become a digital designer with a big paycheck. I think the real problem is that we have so much choice it’s difficult to decide.
I am a firm believer of anyone being able to achieve anything they want. But what do you really want? Maybe it’s ok to not have it all figured out yet.
If you know, you’re one of the lucky ones. Now, go get it.